...Hm...

So I heard an Alanis Morisette song called "Unsent" for the first time. And it made me think back on people in my own past, and I found myself putting their names in place of the names in her song. So I thought I'd post the lyrics with the names(and a couple other words) changed here....just to get it out of my system without posting them somewhere they could be seen by people who shouldn't see them.....

"Dear [Anthony], I like you a lot. I realize you're [still not over] a relationship with someone right now, and I respect that. I would like you to know that if you're ever [interested] in the future and you want to come visit me in California, I would be open to spending time with you and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song.

Dear [Justin], I liked you too much. I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me and think solely about themselves, and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste. At the time, I used to say the more tragic, the better. The truth is, whenever I think of the early 90's, your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday.

Dear [Peter], I love you muchly. You've been nothing but open-hearted and emotionally available and supportive and nurturing and consummately there for me. I kept drawing you in and pushing you away. I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time. You were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself. What was wrong with me?

Dear [Billy], You rocked my world. You had a charismatic way about you with the women, and you got me seriously thinking about spirituality, and you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass. But I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you though, and that stopped us from going any further than we did. And it's kinda too bad, because we could've had much more fun.

Dear [Alan], We learned so much. I realize we won't be able to talk for some time, and I understand that, as I do you. The long-distance thing was the hardest, and we did as well as we could. We were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives. I will always have your back and be curious about you, about your career, about your whereabouts."

<3

-30 Day Song Challenge; Days 19 ~ 22-

Oops. Looks like I did it again! ^^;;'




Day Nineteen-- Song from my favorite album.


Hrm. I don't know if I really have a favorite album! @_@ Well, here's a song from *ONE* of my favorite albums...

Alanis Morisette - 'You Oughtta Know'

Day Twenty-- Song that I listen to when I'm angry!

I s'pose it depends on what I'm angry ABOUT...so it varies...but this is a common one...

Sick Puppies - 'My World'

Day Twenty-One-- Song I listen to when I'm happy~~

Ke$ha - 'Blow'

Day Twenty-two-- Song I listen to when I'm sad...

I always listen to this song when I'm sad or upset about something, or feeling lost.....it usually makes me feel so much better for some reason~

The Band Perry - 'If I Die Young'

Ta-daa~

-30 Day Song Challenge; Days 3 ~18-

Oooops! I've been neglecting my blog for too long now! So here's the songs I shoulda been posting! >_<.....


Day Three-- Song that makes me happy. ^^

Ke$ha - 'Take It Off'

Day Four-- Song that makes me sad...

Brad Paisley&Allison Krauss - 'Whiskey Lullaby'

Day Fave-- Song that reminds me of someone......

There are so many...but this is a very important one... u_u  Reminds me of the love of my life, the man who was my everything[fiance, lover, best friend, Master, Daddy, Alpha Wolf] until he left to find things I couldn't give him. I love and miss you always, Justin. DmnRgrt♥

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - 'Damn Regret'

Day Six-- Song that reminds me of somewhere.

This song reminds me of when I was a kid, listening to my Garth Brooks cassette tapes in the car with Grandma, and we'd both be singing horribly at the top of our lungs, even though we only knew some of the words then!! Haha. So it reminds me of California, Grandmas house mostly. :]

Garth Brooks - 'Friends In Low Places'

Day Seven-- Song that reminds me of a certain event.

Hrm. Not sure about this one. There's a lot I could use. Guess I'll use the song that makes me think of the car ride, cruising around with no real destination, when my best friend and I first talked about how we were both falling in love with each other and too afraid to say anything. This song was perfect for us...it's our song, Dani-Baby; I love youu. <#3

Colbie Caillat - 'Falling For You'

Day Eight-- Song that I know all the words to!

Well, that could be a lot of songs. :P

Eve 6 - 'Inside Out'

Day Nine-- Song that I can dance to~~  :D

To say that I *can* dance is a stretch, but a song that I do like to dance to--

Savage - 'Swing'

Day Ten-- Song that makes me fall asleep.

Okay. Here is where you call me completely insane. This song--ESPECIALLY on full-blast coming from headphones!--can always put me to sleep. I don't know why, it just..can. @_@

Disturbed - 'Down With the Sickness'

Day Eleven-- Song from my favorite band.

I don't have just one favorite band. But Fall-Out-Boy is one of my top favorites. Befoooorrre they sold out, of course!!! :O

Fall-Out-Boy - 'Sugar, We're Going Down'

Day Twelve-- Song from a band I hate.

EUGH. I'll kill myself before I actually listen to this CRAP.  xP

Tenacious D - 'Tribute'

Day Thirteen-- Song that is a guilty pleasure.

Hmmmm...guilty pleasure song? How aboooooouuuut........

Backstreet Boys - 'Incomplete'

Day Fourteen-- Song that no one would expect me to love!

Heh heh heh.......

Insane Clown Posse - 'Rainbows n Stuff'

Day Fifteen-- Song that describes me.

Ohhhh, there are so manyy....like 'Gypsy' by Shakira, 'Love Me Dead' by Ludo, 'Bitch' by Merideth Brooks/ALANIS MORISETTE, 'She Will Be Loved' by Maroon 5...............but this is the song, the only song, that my mom has said makes her think of me. <3

Natalie Merchant - 'Wonder'

Day Sixteen-- Song that I used to love but now hate....

I don't know if I'd say *hate* but I certainly have a difficult time listening to it now.......

Taylor Swift - 'Love Story'

 

Day Seventeen-- Song that I hear often on the radio.

Tonight Tonight 'Hot Chelle Rae'

Day Eighteen-- Song that I wish I heard on the radio.

This song makes me think of a certain someone in my life. Now if only I didn't have to go looking for it just to hear it! :P

Jessie J - 'Abracadabra'

Sorry again for not doing anything with this for soo long! Hopefully I can get myself back into the habit of blogging again! xD

♥Ta-taa~

-30 Day Song Challenge; Day 2-

Day Two-- Least Favorite Song.


Uhm. Ya know...this song just pisses me off. Anyways...  >_<

"Yellow Submarine" - The Beatles

What am I?

Sounds like a silly question, right? Maybe it is. But, every day,  I find myself thinking about it. There are so many different parts to me; sometimes they all fit together right, but more often than not, some of those parts just don't seem to fit well at all, or some suit me better than others. It's like what I am changes so frequently that I can't hold onto any one thing. I thought I had it figured out. I thought I was a switch kitten that preferred to submit rather than Dominate. That's what I used to think. There's a whole five months of events that led me to realize that  there was more to me, and more to be confused about--but I don't feel like delving into that part of the story in this entry, 'cause that is more a story of its own. Switch. Someone who participates in both sides of D/s; someone who enjoys Dominating someone, and submitting to someone. I knew I was a switch, and I knew I leaned more towards submission. And I think I still know that. But something about the Dominance side of switching started to appeal to me more and more. Almost more than submission for a little while, then about equally. I got a chance to explore Dominance online, and needless to say, I am nooo good at it!! I enjoy being submitted to, but when it comes to actively Dominating them..I'm quite clueless and shy! Soo back to submission for me, where I know I fit--or do I? Some things I have had trouble giving up or changing. Sometimes...well, sometimes I just want to be me, without the submission. I feel like I am not cut out to be a sub, as much as the idea of being someones pet appeals to me; but maybe what I need to do is find someone who is willing and able to fade in and out of the dynamic as needed, and accepts that I've far from perfected my submission. On another, similar note--kitten. I am a kitten. Petplay, in both sexual and non-sexual; I love it. But again...through recent experiences and interaction...there's something else about me I found. I am a little; a babygirl, if you will. That opened a whole new door--the "Daddys Little Girl Complex" as I have heard it called. I don't have daddy issues, I don't like it as an actual Daddy/daughter roleplay. I'm not going to go into descriptions or definitions or whatever about the DD/bg dynamic, it would be digressing, and it's not the point I am making with this entry. Especially since most of the people reading my blog most likely know enough about the concept. Anyways. A kitten, or a babygirl? Both, technically. I thought that being a kitten was the biggest thing about me, in these regards at least. Then I found myself feeling less and less kitten, and more and more little. It's a confusing feeling to find out that something you used to turn away from is not only something you are and enjoy, but is also beginning to push other parts of you out of the way. Maybe it just takes time to feel a good balance between the two, or maybe I am discovering that a babygirl is even more what I am; I'll know eventually, I guess. That doesn't make it any less frustrating for me right now. I think about these things too much, and I know it. But when your beloved up and leaves you for something else, and you're still here picking up pieces...there's a lot of time to think, and a lot more to think about.

-30 Day Song Challenge; Day 1-

Day one-- Favorite song.  ^^


Well...hrmm, it's actually really hard for me to pick a one *FAVORITE* song. But I suppose I could use one of my new favorites that keeps getting stuck in my head!! >_<  It's a song that my adorable little kitty friend, Crimson, showed my the other day...

"First Impressions" - Julia Nunes

Enjoy!~ ^^

Musics = ♥

Sooo, since I wasn't sure where to start with this...I decided to take a fun little thing I found on facebook and use it here!--The 30 Day Song Challenge.  :]]


   Each day, starting, I'm going to post a song as according to this list--

Day 01 - your favorite song
Day 02 - your least favorite song
Day 03 - a song that makes you happy
Day 04 - a song that makes you sad

Day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone

Day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere

Day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event 

Day 08 - a song that you know all the words to

Day 09 - a song that you can dance to

Day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep 

Day 11 - a song from your favorite band 

Day 12 - a song from a band you hate 

Day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure 

Day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love 

Day 15 - a song that describes you 

Day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate 

Day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio

Day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio

Day 19 - a song from your favorite album

Day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry 

Day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy

Day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad

Day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding

Day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral

Day 25 - a song that makes you laugh

Day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument

Day 27 - a song that you wish you could play

Day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty

Day 29 - a song from your childhood 

Day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Hope you enjoy getting to know me through my music tastes!~  xD